Thursday, April 26, 2012

Workin' for the weekend!

I swear today took forever to get through AND its only Thursday...well pratically Friday. Thank goodness. Two reasons: end of the work week and I'm pretty sure tomorrow is my payday. I have enough of work this past week to probably last me a good month. I'm more excited about Saturday though, we're going to be headed out to the range. Finally!

It was my idea. He's been to the range a couple times this past month and for work in order to qualify. I haven't been in months and I'm itching to get out there.

I'm sure too I'll be asked again by him when I'm going to get a gun. Truth is, I'm not sure. I don't even know what kind of gun I want. I really like his service weapon...a Glock 22 I think, but the hand grip is slightly cumbersome for my smaller hands.

Regardless, I need a chance to relax this weekend and being with Sam at the range is definitely going to be a great start. I'm also hoping to get in some workout time as well.

Sunday, April 22, 2012

The swing

I thought about titling this post "the revolving door" but that always carries such a negative conotation and I thought swings are always fun.

One minute Sam is absolutely certain that he wants out of his city and out of the force. He curses it. Swears up and down that he hates work and will never go back. I hear about it literaly 24/7. But it takes one dinner with my parents this weekend and he was backpeddling just a little. He went on an undercover bit Friday morning and the few arsons that popped up and he was all excited about being a cop again, talking to my parents about trying for the detective bureau. I swear, I can't win with this man.

But then he hates having the posibility of blood on his hands. He almost killed a man on a call. He had the conscious thought to put a bullet in the man's head if he made the slightest movement. Please excuse my graphic description. He has a habit of telling me about work in a pretty raw and honest manner. He was on a call to a suspicious person sitting in a car. He approached the car, the man was sitting in the front seat slumped over and his hands out of sight. He shone his light in the car and saw the gun on the man's lap. The man was unresponsive, passed out drunk, a fact he says saved the man's life.

I'm not sure if he's still bothered by it or if he loses sleep over it. He can't exactly afford to lose sleep over it but I do think he still thinks about it and tries not too. I think I'm the one that loses sleep over things that happen at his work. Its why I stay up late on nights that I have to be up early for work the next morning...much like tonight. At least its his short week so I'll only be up late three nights this week instead of four. I wish I had more control over these nights.

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Worry wort

I was taking the dogs out this evening when the lights and sirens came whirring by as local boys ran code three somewhere down the street. It reminded me of how much I (constently) worry about Sam when he works graveyard. But it also made me wonder if he ever worries about me home alone at night.

I asked him thinking he'd come back with a slick answer of how I have two guns in the house. But no. He said that he did worry about me. For good reason, I worry about myself too. I'll be glad when he's in a normal job with normal hours, we won't have to worry about each other.

Sunday, April 1, 2012

Things change. And friends leave. Life doesn't stop for anybody

(quote by Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower)

Big changes are coming for Sam and I. I may have touched on this earlier in the blog but if I haven't, Sam has chosen to leave the force for good. I believe its a choice for the better. The department he works for isn't the fairest, in fact I think he mentioned that over 30 officers have left the department in the two years he's been there and another ten or eleven officers are set to leave this year. I love that he's my officer but I'll be happy when he leaves for good.

He gets treated like shit to put it simply. Overworked, under appreciated and under paid. I just became a full-time employee at my job making $12.50 an hour, so a little under $1000 every two weeks after taxes. My last paycheck with twelve hours over time I came in over $1000. He saw and actually took a picture of my paycheck and sent it to Dan (who just left the department last week) stating that even though I make less than him hourly ($16.90 an hour), at the end of two weeks I in fact make more. I'm currently the breadwinner in the household....which I think upsets him. He shouldn't have to live paycheck to paycheck, which is his current financial situation. We didn't go to the movies this weekend because there is no money in his bank account. My offering to pay doesn't seem to help his position.

I think he's leaning toward nursing. He was talking with a nurse down in the ER when he was there during shift. The nurse said they made $40 an hour. I would like to think a person who has the chance to be shot at every day at work should be making the $40 an hour. He hasn't started applying yet; I think he wants to talk to someone at the community college about classes before hand. Maybe he'll start looking into that soon.

As for me. I've gotten two job offers for the company my company is contracted by. I don't have full details yet, so I'm not about to make my decisions but it seems that both do make more money. Hopefully this week I'll have more of an idea what the positions are and what they entail.